I will wait for you!!

So it seemed that it was cool for every one to be in a relationship but me, so i took matters into my own hands and ended up with him..
Him who displayed the traits of a liar, cheater abuser and a thief.
So why was i surprised when he broke into my heart, i called 911 but i was cardiac arrested for aiding and abetting, cus it was me who let him in.
Claiming we were "just" friends, it was already decided for me by the 1st date that even if he wasn't i was going to make him "The One".
You know... i was tired of being alone, and i simply made up my mind that it was about that time, so i decided to drag him along for the ride, cause i was always the bridesmaid and never the bride...
A virgin in the physical but mentally just a matured woman on the corner in the heat who was tired of the wait!!!
So i was gonna make him the one, He had a form of godliness but not so much!
But hey hey i can change him,So i'd take him i mean he's close..... enough.
Ready to sell my aorta for a quarter not knowing its value of its use to me
Arteries so clogged with MY will that it blocked His will from flowing through me
So,i thank CHRIST that his blood pressure gave this heart an attack
That flatlined my obscured vision, put me flat on my back, through my ignorance he saw,
through my sternum HE sawed and cracked open my chest, to transplant Psalms 51:10,
A new heart and a renewed right spirit within, So now i fully understand better yet i thoroughly
comprehend how much i need to wait for you.
See the bad thing is that i knew he wasn't you from the beginning, Cause in the beginning was the word
and he didnt even shine or sound like your SON..
Out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks, and all he could whisper were sweet empty nothings
which meant NOTHING!!
He couldnt even pray when i need him to, asking him to fast would be absurd, so forget about being washed and cleansed with water through the word.
But i know you, you were already praying for me.
Even never having met me, let me assure you that i will wait for You..
I will no longer date, socialize or communicate with carbon copies of you, to appease my boredom or to quench my thirsty desire for attention and short lived compliments from sorta kindas...
You know, he's sorta kinda right but sorta kinda wrong,
His first name LUKE he's last name WARM!
I won't settle for false companionship
I won't lay in the embrace of his arms
Attempting to find some closeness,
But never feeling so far apart because i want to be held
Cause all i gotta do is say NO!
NO more 'almost sessions' of 'almost coming close'
passing winks and buying drinks with thoughts of amma amma flirt!
Who flirts with the ideology of,can you just tell me how much i can get away with and still be saved?
No more.
I'll stay in my bed and write poems about how i will wait for you
He won't even come close,our fingers won't even interlock, we won't even exchange breaths,
 'Cause i have thoughts that i have 'saved as' in a file that God has equipped only you to open.
I will no longer get weighted down from so-called friend and family talks, about the concern for my biological clock, when i serve the Author of time.
Who is not subject to time but i'm subject to him
He has the ability to  stop,fast foward,pause,rewind at any given time so if we could role play,
You would be Abraham and i will be Sarah,
I am bone of your bone and flesh of your flesh
Made of your rib Adam
And once we meet like electrons, i will be bound to your nucleus, completely indivisible atom
We even speak the same math, 1+1+1=3
 which really equals 1 if you add HIM.
We were all created in his image but you have the ability the reflect, project and even detect the son.
I f i were to explain what you looked like, you would have to look like a star, a sun of the SON.
I would gain energy simply from the light that you shine on me.
I would need you in order to complete my photosynthesis, i await your revelation but once again from the genesis i would wait for YOU..
And i will know you because when you speak, i will be reminded of Solomon's wisdom
Your ability to lead would remind me of MOSES
Your faith wold remind me of ABRAHAM
Your confidence in God's word would remind me of DANIEL.
Your inspiration will remiind me of PAUL.
Your heart for God would remind me of DAVID.
Your attention to detail would remind me of NOAH.
Your integrity would remind me of JOSEPH
And your ability to abandon your own will, will remind me of the disciples
But your ability to love selflessly and unconditionally would remind me of CHRIST!
I won't need to identify you by any special Matthews or Marks, 'cause he's word will be tattoed all over your heart, and you will know me and you will find me, where the BOLDNESS of ESTHER, meets the warm closeness of RUTH, where the hospitality of LYDIA, is aligned with the submission of MARY, which is engulfed in the tears of a praying HANNAH, i will be the one drenched in Proverbs 31 waiting for you..
But if my FATHER who gave me life speaks and says his will for me is a life of singleness, his will  i obey, for he is the greatest love story ever told.
I wan't to be found about his business so either ways I WILL WAIT FOR YOU....